Part two

Michael’s personality in the years following Hanna’s departure was completely affected by his relationship with Hanna. Hanna had taught him how to feel love, and to be loved, and then have love violently ripped away. After he suffered, he turned himself off. He made himself numb and closed himself off from everyone. He described his state of being as detached. He said that it was like watching someone else live his life. Michael in his attempt to remove Hanna and love from his life, stick himself in a whirlwind of the past. He completely makes himself unable to let go. He held onto the hurt, by pretending that he can never feel the hurt again. He did not face his problem and so they followed him and made him cold and shallow.

When Hanna reappeared into his life he said that he felt nothing, but his action indicated other wise. He came to the trial, every single day. He obsessed over whether he thought that Hanna was guilty or innocent. He obsessed over her reasoning for saying that she was illiterate. He obsessed over her trial so much that he even discussed it with his emotionally distance father. He could not perceive Hanna as being bad enough to knowingly send people off to their death with indifference. Yet he knew with certainty that she did. He tried agonizingly to understand her, and yet he was also incapable of that because understand what she had done means knowing the terrors of what her guilt implies. He then fantasied over her. S&M fantasies that brought him shame. For someone so desperate to move on, he seems to be clinging quiet tightly.